Motivation

Hello All!!

Most of the time I do not enjoy being a student. I feel like going to class, taking exams, and completing the busy work my professors assign is just a waste of time. Most of the time I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything, and that I am just dawdling and killing time, until I can join the "real world". This elusive "real world" is where I actually get to start truly interacting, meeting people, and helping make a difference in the world. I felt school was interfering with any of the small projects I was working on to "actually" make a difference. I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I had a conversation with a friend a few weeks ago about how they are waiting to graduate because they were waiting for their life to start. Even when we were talking, I did not like the idea that they were waiting for graduation. I had known that life had already started. We ARE living, even if we are not directly involved in the fields we choose to serve in. Looking back now, I suppose that I am half guilty of the same thought process. Sometimes I struggle to understand just how important the education system is to both my future profession and the development of myself.

This morning, for the first time in a long time, I've decided that I like school. Normally I feel like I could just as decently get an education by reading and perusing the internet (largely just doing my own research), but I've really enjoyed my assignments this week. Even my professors have seemed mildly more interesting. They add a perspective and a broader range of ideas than I know I would probably have developed online with any efficiency. I'm currently swamped with homework, but I am enjoying my assignments. I have a huge research essay that I've started, and for one reason or another it's really sparked my interest for learning once more. This love for learning has been coming in cycles all semester, maybe because I'm learning to appreciate my classes or professors, maybe because these upper division classes are finally sparking my interest, or maybe just because I'm paying attention. For any reason, I'm glad that this extra motivation has decided to entered my life, for without it I don't think I would be able to plow through all of this homework without it.

As for what I've been up to lately. I don't really have much that's new. As you can see by my numbers below I've been reading a lot more in the last two-three weeks, but other than that I don't have too much going on. We had a jazz band concert this past weekend, that actually proved to be a lot of fun as well. We were playing with a professional ensemble, which also inspired me to continue playing with the jazz band. With all honesty I'm still not sure whether or not I plan to continue band next year, but I'm definitely considering it a lot more. In other news I've discovered that next year is going to be a hectic one, but I'll more than likely still be able to graduate on time. So that's exciting. And lastly, I've started to really dream again. It's been a long time since I consistently dreamed, so it has been a rather welcome change.

~Cola

Books Read: 16

Miles Run: 10

New Movies: 16

( I swear I did not try this on purpose... apparently six is just the number of the week.)